Bikini shopping

Today I’m having body insecurity. I 100% know it happens to everyone, but why does it always hit you when you least expect it!? Yesterday, I was bikini shopping for my holiday next week. After trying on 12 bikinis I decided I was too hideous, fat and ugly to be seen in public ever again, and went home with zero bikinis and a little bit of a broken heart!

But the day started off very positively. I was feeling good! I thought my hard work was paying off. That was until I put on my first bikini!

In the last 3 months, I have spent £400 on a personal trainer, have restricted my calorie intake to less than the squirrel in my garden eats, and run anywhere between 5-10 miles a week! I guess what I’m trying to say is: I TRIED! I really did try. I wanted to feel and look good on my holiday, and so I thought I had put in a good amount of effort to reach those goals.

But I STILL don’t even look close to the women you see in magazines ……. But then again do they even look like that themselves?

What do I do next? Give up and eat cake, and just be happy with the fact that I’m going on holiday? Or do I stick to my goals?



Having children

Sometimes people ask me why I haven’t had children yet. It is actually really f**king annoying!

I mostly answer with, “O I’ll have them soon” (which is usually met with a response of pure excitement); or “I just wanted to travel and experience life first” (which is usually met with a roll of the eyes); or “I wanted to wait until I’m married” (usually met with a sad sympathetic tilt of the head); or my personal favourite “I bloody hate children, they are so f**king annoying” (the best response if you want a sharp end to the conversation).

I’m sure being a mum is the greatest thing in the world, but the way I see it is why rush. Personally, I really do want to live and travel first. I want to be more financially and emotionally stable before I partake in the greatest journey of all. I guess I just want to be able to make my own choices without people judging me (isn’t that what we all want?).

Yes I’m 32 years old, and yes maybe I’m playing with fire, maybe I am leaving it too late, but for now it is what I want to do. And if it doesn’t work out, I only have myself to blame……

Re blogging

I’m having a free book give away from 26 – 30th May. Would anyone like to feature my book? Or do a review for that weekend? Or tweet about it? Or whatever ever really?

If I like your blog / tweet I can return the favour and retweet and reblog?

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Being busy…

So, I haven’t been very active on my blog this year at all, and for that I am sorry. I guess I have been feeling a bit defeated and a little overwhelmed. Life just gets so God dam busy, doesn’t it? Honestly, I don’t know where the time goes. How is it May 2017 already?

Although I have some great reviews on the book already, as most of you know getting reviews is hard. It’s exhausting. Add to that family, friends, six nieces and nephews, three cats and two jobs, and I don’t seem to be able to find the time to continue writing book two. Something has to give, and for the past few months it has unfortunately been my blog and communication with you guys (my online family).

So, I guess I need to decide what I do from here, do I continue with book two? Or do I put all my effort in to getting reviews? (because quitting my jobs, dumping my cats and not seeing my family and friends may seem like a great idea at the time but it probably wouldn’t get me far [and I would be miserable]!).

All advice welcome please.