Today I’m having body insecurity. I 100% know it happens to everyone, but why does it always hit you when you least expect it!? Yesterday, I was bikini shopping for my holiday next week. After trying on 12 bikinis I decided I was too hideous, fat and ugly to be seen in public ever again, and went home with zero bikinis and a little bit of a broken heart!
But the day started off very positively. I was feeling good! I thought my hard work was paying off. That was until I put on my first bikini!
In the last 3 months, I have spent £400 on a personal trainer, have restricted my calorie intake to less than the squirrel in my garden eats, and run anywhere between 5-10 miles a week! I guess what I’m trying to say is: I TRIED! I really did try. I wanted to feel and look good on my holiday, and so I thought I had put in a good amount of effort to reach those goals.
But I STILL don’t even look close to the women you see in magazines ……. But then again do they even look like that themselves?
What do I do next? Give up and eat cake, and just be happy with the fact that I’m going on holiday? Or do I stick to my goals?